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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Iraq War Vets and Concussions and TBIs

What we have always called "closed head injury" which, apparently has been renamed as TBI, has been one of the most undiagnosed conditions in civilian, as well as military, life for years.

Often found in cases of whiplash from auto accidents when the driver or passenger is hit from behind, TBIs often go undianosed. While connected to the spine and spinal column, the brain floats in a sea of spinal fluid. When the head is thrown forward and back, violently, the pre-frontal lobes can smash into the front of the skull, which has protrusions, like stubby little fingers, except these protrusions are all bone. This can really do a number on the brain's normal executive function.

When someone presents at a hospital with signs and symptoms of concussion, the main concern is the development of a sub-dural hematoma; in other words a big bruise. Of course a big bruise is no big deal if it is found on a person's arm, leg or any other part of the anatomy after an accident of some kind. However, there is only so much room inside the skull, so a large mass of dried blood or bleeeding of the brain inside the skull is a critical condition, relieved by drilling a hole in the skull to relieve the pressure on the brain.

So, if there is no open wound or subdural, patients are discharged from the hospital E.R with warnings to the family to check their loved one every 45 minutes or so, and they are told what to look for, like uneven dilation of pupils and the like. If such symptoms are observed, the patient should be brought back to the hospital, STAT.

TBIs can cause problems for a person for years, or maybe for life. Nevertheless, the human brain is quite remarkable and can often, if given time, regain at least some if the lost function.

Not much can be done, medically. Helping the patient learn how to cope with less brain function is about the only thing that can be done. Neurofeedback is sometimes quite helpful in cases of closed head injury.


August 26, 2008


Former Staff Sgt. Kevin Owsley is not quite sure what rattled his brain in 2004: the roadside bomb that exploded about a yard from his Humvee or the rocket-propelled grenade that flung him across a road as he walked to a Porta Potti on base six weeks later.


After each attack, he did what so many soldiers do in Iraq. He shrugged off his ailments — headaches, dizzy spells, persistent ringing in his ears and numbness in his right arm — chalking them up to fatigue or dehydration. Given that he never lost consciousness, he figured the discomfort would work itself out and kept it to himself.


“You keep doing your job with your injuries,” said Mr. Owsley, 47, an Indiana reservist who served as a gunner for a year outside Baghdad beginning in March 2004. “You don’t think about it.”


But more than three years after coming home, Mr. Owsley’s days have been irrevocably changed by the explosions. He struggles to unscramble his memory and thoughts. He often gets lost on the road, even with directions. He writes all his appointments down but still forgets a few. He wears a hearing aid, cannot bear sunlight on his eyes, still succumbs to nightmares and considers four hours of sleep a night a gift.


Mr. Owsley is part of a growing tide of combat veterans who come home from Iraq and Afghanistan with mild traumatic brain injuries, or concussions, caused by powerful explosions. As many as 300,000, or 20 percent, of combat veterans who regularly worked outside the wire, away from bases, have suffered at least one concussion, according to the latest Pentagon estimates. About half the soldiers get better within hours, days or several months and require little if any medical assistance. But tens of thousands of others have longer-term problems that can include, to varying degrees, persistent memory loss, headaches, mood swings, dizziness, hearing problems and light sensitivity.


These symptoms, which may be subtle and may not surface for weeks or months after their return, are often debilitating enough to hobble lives and livelihoods.


To this day, some veterans — it is impossible to know how many — remain unscreened, their symptoms undiagnosed. Mild brain injury was widely overlooked by the military and the veterans health system until recently.


Even now, with traumatic brain injury called the signature injury of the Iraq war, some soldiers and their advocates say that complications from mild concussions often are not recognized.


Mr. Owsley’s request for a Purple Heart, given to troops wounded or killed in action, was denied by the military, a devastating blow. Others say that their mild brain injury entitled them only to low disability payments, or, if the diagnosis was inconclusive, to none at all.


This has happened in large part because there is no quantifiable diagnostic test for the injury, and the language used by the Veterans Affairs Department to rate traumatic brain injury, or T.B.I., is vague. The military, in particular, seldom rates each symptom from a concussion separately, which it is required to do, said Kerry Baker, associate national legislative director for Disabled American Veterans.


“The criteria remains ambiguous,” Mr. Baker said. “The military way underrates T.B.I. and its symptoms.”


Scant Medical Knowledge


Little is known medically by doctors or scientists about what happens to a brain as a result of a powerful bomb blast, as opposed to car crashes on a highway, blows to the head on a football field or a bullet wound. These are the first wars in which soldiers, protected by strong armor and rapid medical care, routinely survive explosions at close range and then return to combat.


The bomb blasts, which throw off energy waves — atmospheric overpressures and underpressures — that are absorbed by the body, add a little-studied dimension to the trauma. Scientists are only now beginning to study the extent of the damage.


That soldiers are sometimes exposed to multiple blasts during a deployment, or can suffer from a vast combination of wounds, including shrapnel, burns, blows to the head, blast waves, lost limbs or internal injuries, can exacerbate brain trauma in ways unseen among civilians. “It is the black box of injuries,” said Dr. Alisa D. Gean, the chief of neuroradiology at San Francisco General Hospital and a traumatic brain injury expert who spent time treating soldiers at Landstuhl Regional Medical Center in Germany. “We’re at the tip of the iceberg of understanding it. It is one of the most complicated injuries to one of the most complicated parts of the body.”


These mild concussions, which do not necessarily lead to loss of consciousness, are easy to dismiss, simple to misdiagnose and difficult to detect. The injured soldiers can walk and talk. Their heads usually show no obvious signs of trauma. CT scans cannot see the injuries. And the symptoms often mirror those found in post-traumatic stress disorder, making it hard to distinguish between them. In fact, the two ailments often go hand in hand.


Gee, what a surprise!


But the consequences of these seemingly small concussions can be far-reaching, leading to financial problems, job losses, divorce and mental health issues. The ramifications often go unseen by the military because symptoms often worsen once veterans leave the structure of the Army or Marine Corps for the unpredictability of civilian life.


Take the case of Mr. Owsley, a father of three, whose brain injury so impaired his reaction time and memory that doctors advised him not to work.


“I almost lost everything,” said Mr. Owsley, whose wife brought home the family paycheck for two years, working at a nursing home. “We were at the point of getting ready to lose the house and the cars. Then you start planning out things. I was planning to do suicide and make it look like an accident so my family would get the insurance.”


At first, he said, doctors missed his traumatic brain injury. “She told me nothing was wrong with me, but she gave me like 18 different medications, for pain, to go to sleep, for lots of other things,” he said of his first visit to a Veterans Affairs doctor at a facility in Fort Wayne, Ind.


Later that year, another veterans hospital said he had mild traumatic brain injury, post-traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, hearing loss and injuries to his hand, ankles, eye and back. He was rated 100 percent disabled by the Veterans Affairs Department and now receives a monthly check for $2,711, easing the financial pressure somewhat.


Yet Mr. Owsley, referring to his Purple Heart denial letter, said he felt his injuries had gone unrecognized by the military “because there was no blood” and because he chose to work through his pain.


“They said it was because I didn’t report it in the field and seek medical attention at the time, and there was no proof” of any obvious injury, Mr. Owsley said. “I had guys write statements for me to prove it had happened. As a soldier with 23 years in the Army, them badges mean more than anything. When you get injured, you should be recognized, even if you don’t see it over there.”


Has anyone thought of brain imaging, as a diagnostic tool? What about a Pet scan? Probably too expensive.


It was not until 2006, three years into the Iraq war, that the Departments of Defense and Veterans Affairs began to pay close attention to mild traumatic brain injuries. The Pentagon last year opened the Defense Centers of Excellence for Psychological Health and Traumatic Brain Injury, a clearinghouse for treatment, training, prevention, research and education. This year it is spending a record $300 million on research for traumatic brain injury and post-traumatic stress disorder.


“We are more attuned to brain injuries now,” said Lt. Col. Michael Jaffee, the director of the Defense and Veterans Brain Injury Center. “There has not been as aggressive an effort before.”


That effort begins with screening. As of May, service members who deploy longer than 30 days will undergo neurocognitive testing before leaving, to establish a baseline for changes that may occur later, and again upon returning. At the same time, soldiers in battle who lose consciousness or feel dazed after a blast or other event must be screened by a medical provider and are either approved for duty in the field, told to rest for several days on base or sent to Landstuhl for further evaluation.


Last year, Veterans Affairs started screening all Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans who come in for clinical help. So far, 33,000 of 227,015, about 15 percent, have screened positive for mild brain injury since April 2007.


It is unclear how many service members, particularly those who fought earlier in the war, remain unscreened and whose injuries go undiagnosed.


“No doubt that there are significant numbers out there,” said Dr. Barbara Sigford, director of physical medicine and rehabilitation for the Department of Veterans Affairs.


Bryan Lane, 31, a former sergeant first class in Special Forces, did not zero in on his head injury until more than a year after a bomb exploded next to him in a house in Baghdad in 2005. The reasons were understandable. He lost a huge chunk of his right arm in the explosion and was fortunate not to have lost the limb altogether.


He did not realize that his brain had taken a hit until five months later, when he saw the gaping hole in the front of his helmet. He never lost consciousness after the blast, but the soldier next to him was knocked out for two hours.


The possibility that he might have suffered a concussion was never mentioned during his many months at Womack Army Medical Center in Fort Bragg, N.C., where he had several operations to save his arm. Six months after he was medically discharged, when he was putting in a Veterans Affairs disability claim for his arm injury, a V.A. doctor brought up a possibility overlooked at Womack: he might still be suffering symptoms from a concussion.


It explained his shortened attention span, his frequent search for the right word during conversation and his forgetfulness. “I hear things, but it doesn’t throw it in the memory box,” he said.


These symptoms can also be found in PTSD patients; either in people who have been subjected to one acute stressor or long-term, continuing stress. Acute or long-term, unremitting stress can cause the hippocampus to literally shrink. This is the brain structure that is responsible for memory storage. It decides whether the information is significant enough to be stored long term, or tossed out, after a period of time.


There may also be an inability to concentrate, like that found in some attention deficit disorders. If one cannot concentrate all that well, it is unlikely that information will even paid attention, let alone be stored for future use.


“I was completely honest and said I don’t think I have T.B.I.,” said Mr. Lane, who is still articulate, though less so today, he said. “A lot of guys, myself included, fight the label of T.B.I. no matter how mild. In a way, it’s like people are calling you stupid or retarded, and I know that’s not P.C.”


The Veterans Affairs Department, which has become increasingly vigilant about mild traumatic brain injury, thought otherwise and did something unusual. It attached a brain injury claim alongside one for post-traumatic stress disorder, covering all bases. “Since no one understands the relation they have to each other, they said, ‘If you have one, you have the other,’ ” said Mr. Lane, who receives benefits for mental and physical injuries. He now works for the Armed Forces Foundation, a nonprofit group that provides troops, many of them injured, with financial support, among other things.


Delayed Symptoms Explained


Post-traumatic stress disorder and traumatic brain injury are closely tied, although the precise relationship between the two is unknown.


This connection was most recently established in a study in The New England Journal of Medicine in January by Col. Charles W. Hoge, an Army psychiatrist who is leading efforts to identify mental health problems among combat troops. His survey of 2,500 Army infantry soldiers found that more than 40 percent of those who reported loss of consciousness also met the criteria for post-traumatic stress disorder. That was a much higher percentage than those who had suffered other injuries, like Humvee accidents or falls.


Dr. Hoge cautioned, though, that some symptoms — anger, headaches, depression, sleeplessness, mood swings — may stem solely from combat stress, a psychiatric disorder, and not traumatic brain injury. Combat, he emphasized, often goes hand in hand with traumatic experiences, including a near loss of life or the death or injury of others.


For years most troops with mild concussions stayed on the job, immersing themselves in combat again and re-exposing themselves to additional blasts with little or no time to rest and recover. This pattern only heightened the risk of brain injury and post-traumatic stress disorder, doctors say.


Civilians with brain injury, on the other hand, are given time to recuperate for long periods in a safe environment, which may explain why they respond differently to stress.


Dr. Ibolja Cernak, a brain injury expert who is medical director of the applied physics laboratory at Johns Hopkins University and is conducting research into blast injuries, said she had noted other differences between blast-injured soldiers and mildly brain-injured civilians. Soldiers, she said, can develop symptoms two years after a blast. Some also have greater difficulty walking or talking, or with aggression.


“Civilians don’t have the frequency of these symptoms,” Dr. Cernak said. There is no cure for those with prolonged concussion symptoms, only methods to help them learn to adapt.


Sgt. Tony Wood, 41, now based at Schofield Barracks in Hawaii, keeps a large color-coded board by the door with reminders about his appointments, his chores and his belongings, all part of the Brain Injury Recovery Kit he received from a nonprofit group called the 10 in 10 Project. His wife calls him all day with reminders, and after losing his keys countless times, he attaches them to his pants. Notebooks fill his pockets.


In his view, the military is still failing to grasp the depths of his injury, and those of other soldiers like him.


In July 2005, Sergeant Wood’s Humvee hit a roadside bomb cemented into the curb. The blast set off a chain reaction, triggering two American fragmentation grenades inside the Humvee along with an antitank weapon and countless rounds of ammunition. The two other soldiers riding with him died in the blast. The explosion tore through Sergeant Wood’s arm and abdomen and then ricocheted inside his body, leaving only his heart untouched. His liver had a fist-size hole, he lost his spleen and part of his stomach, and he sustained damage to his lungs and diaphragm.


Sergeant Wood’s first memory after the bomb was opening his eyes at Walter Reed Army Medical Center about a month later, seeing his wife, and asking, “Why are you in Iraq?”


Doctors patched up most of his physical wounds over five months. But his wife, who was born with mild brain injuries, noticed that Sergeant Wood, a military policeman, was not himself mentally. He did not remember someone who had just walked out of the room. He forgot questions he had just asked. He struggled to read one chapter of a book.


Still a Soldier, and Struggling


While he was at Walter Reed in December 2005, Sergeant Wood said doctors gave him a brain injury test. But it was inconclusive. “They tried to say I had A.D.D., I needed a good night’s sleep, you name it,” he said, referring to attention deficit disorder.


As he recovered in the Warrior Transition Unit at Tripler Army Medical Center in Hawaii, Sergeant Wood tried to decide whether to stay in the military by switching to less taxing jobs, an idea he hated, or to leave, collect his benefits and find a civilian job. But his previous jobs — professional cowboy, scuba instructor, construction worker — were out of the question.


“My T.B.I. has impacted my ability to get a good job,” he said, adding that he fears the best position he can get now is as “a greeter at Wal-Mart.”


With four foster children, two biological children and a wife, he steered the safe course and applied to try to stay in the military. The Army Medical Board deemed him unfit for active duty and sent him to the Physical Evaluation Board for a disability rating that would determine his benefits package once discharged from the Army.


When he saw his rating in March, he was floored. Despite his extensive wounds — brain injury, constant pain, failing hips, headaches, noise sensitivity, no spleen, lung damage, liver damage, panic attacks and chronic esophagitis — he received only a 50 percent rating. His brain injury made up 10 percent of the total. A memorandum from the board said that his “stated difficulties are more consistent” with post-traumatic stress disorder.


As a last resort, Sergeant Wood can turn to the federal courts. (He said he had not made that decision yet.)


He is not the first soldier to receive a low rating for his injuries from the Army since the Iraq war began. The ratings so distressed Congress that as of January, it ordered the military to follow solely the ratings schedule issued by the Veterans Affairs Department, which consistently grants veterans more money for the same injuries.


“The Army was raking these guys over the coals,” said Mr. Baker, of Disabled American Veterans.


Asked by The New York Times to review Sergeant Wood’s paperwork, Mr. Baker said his extensive injuries easily should have been rated 100 percent, according to the Veterans Affairs schedule. “This was completely wrong,” Mr. Baker added.


Sergeant Wood has stayed in the Army under a program for soldiers injured in combat. He sits at a Hawaiian jail and alerts the military when a soldier gets locked up. He fears he will get an even lower rating the next time he goes before the Army Medical Board, simply because he is doing his job well.


“You are still treated like you are trying to beat the government out of money,” Sergeant Wood said. “It’s not like I fell off a barstool.”


....and even if he had, it would be totally understandable. Welcome to the world of civilians attempting to receive disability because of closed head-injuries.


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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

PTSD Causes Old Vets To Seek Help

The War Within: Experts Say Millions Could Seek Treatment For Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

by Mike Fitzgerald

Forget what they say about time healing all wounds.

More than 57 years have passed since Phil Heath, 76, of Granite City, served with the Marine Corps in Korea. But he can’t shake the image of the first Marine he saw die in combat.

It was April 24, 1951. Heath’s company was trapped on a hill, defending it from communist attackers.

Fallen Marines covered the hillside, and stretchers were scarce. So Heath and his comrades used an old tarp to carry away the soldier’s body, he said.

“But in order to put him in there, I had to pick his intestines up off the ground and put them on him,” said Heath, a retired steel mill supervisor. “So his intestines were just laying open.”

Neither can Heath forget the last Marine he saw die five months later.

That was Sept. 15, 1951. Promoted by then to platoon leader, Heath was fighting to survive on an outpost nicknamed “Starvation Hill.” He had taken cover in a foxhole when Chinese mortar shells began raining down on his unit.”And a young 18-year-old boy in my platoon had the left side of his head blown off,” Heath said, his voice quavering. “I’ll never get over it, you know.”

‘People who deserve help’

Heath is one of hundreds of thousands of aged veterans seeking help for the nightmares, flashbacks and anxiety they have battled for decades. They are spurred by a growing public awareness of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) wrought by tens of thousands of Iraq and Afghanistan veterans seeking help.

And experts predict millions more World War II, Korea and Vietnam veterans will join them.

The implications for the Department of Veterans Affairs are staggering: There are 6 million World War II veterans, 4.1 million Korean War veterans and 8.1 million Vietnam-era veterans.

Vietnam veterans already receive 92 percent of the agency’s PTSD care, VA figures show. The percentage of male Vietnam veterans age 65 and older is projected to increase from 26 percent of the male veteran population in 1990 to more than 40 percent by 2017, the VA estimates.

In addition to seeking VA help, these aging veterans are filing claims for disability payments for their PTSD and other injuries suffered in war.

World War II veteran Stanley Gibson, 84, of St. Louis, served in the Army’s 99th Infantry Division during the Battle of the Bulge during WWII.

A light machine-gunner, Gibson spent two weeks — from Dec. 16, 1944, to Jan. 4, 1945 — eluding capture behind enemy lines after German tanks overwhelmed his unit.

Three years ago, Gibson, who grew up on a Southern Illinois farm, received a 100 percent disability rating from the VA — 60 percent for frostbite on his feet, 30 percent for PTSD and 10 percent for his age.

But the $2,500 VA check he gets each month doesn’t erase Gibson’s troubling memories of the two German soldiers he shot dead at close range with a .45-caliber pistol when they discovered him hiding in a Belgian farm shed.

Nor does it erase memories of another German soldier Gibson shot and killed as the soldier ran away.

“I think about it quite a bit. You don’t shoot a guy in the back,” Gibson said. “But when you get in combat, you throw the book away.”

Until a few years ago, when he began receiving treatment for PTSD, Gibson dreaded going to bed.

“I didn’t like to sleep because sleep would be dreams,” Gibson said. “And it’s a wonder Vyrlene (his wife) would still be alive because I would have these nightmares. I mean real bad dreams about the war.”

Overall, the influx of so many older veterans into the VA system is a positive trend for society, said Paula Schnurr, a psychologist and deputy executive director of the VA’s National Center for PTSD in White River Junction, Vt.

“What it means is that people who deserve our help, at least some of them, are finally getting it,” she said.

Schnurr began studying PTSD among World War II and Korean War veterans nearly two decades ago.

“Time heals most wounds if you look at the data, meaning that most people who get traumatized won’t develop PTSD,” she said. “However, all kinds of time are not equivalent.”

That is especially true for the veterans who adopted a workaholic lifestyle and decided to get on with their lives once they came home, Schnurr said.

“It helped them cope,” she said.

For older combat veterans, PTSD becomes a problem when one or a combination of “stressors” occur: retirement, the death of a spouse, serious illness, even attendance at a military reunion, Schnurr said.

“It’s the right combination of elements lining up together,” she said.

‘I’m not alone’

Heath spent more than 50 years trying to forget.

Burying himself in his work at the steel mill. Earning a business management degree at Washington University. Raising four kids. Building houses as a side business.

Always keeping busy.

“They say when you come back from war, you either become an alcoholic or workaholic,” Heath said. “I was a workaholic.”

Then seven years ago, everything fell apart.

Heath had retired from the steel mill after a corporate buyout and found himself with a lot of time on his hands.

In July 2001, a good friend and neighbor passed away. Over the next few months, Heath lost his brother, then another good friend, then other friends and relatives.

Then his daughter, Deborah, died at age 46 after suffering a brain aneurysm.

“I lost about 10 people, and it just closed in,” Heath said. “And I went to pieces.”

Heath grew depressed. He stopped eating, shedding 25 pounds from his already spare frame.

“I lost interest in almost everything,” he said.

With little to occupy his time, memories of Korea besieged him.

“My wife would sometimes say, ‘Why do you get so angry about things?’” Heath said. “I said, ‘I don’t know. I guess I just have a temper.’”

Then four years ago, Heath joined a weekly support group for Korean War veterans at Jefferson Barracks VA Hospital in St. Louis County. There, he has found comfort in the group counseling and camaraderie.

“I know I’m not alone in this business,” he said.

Sam Brown, 70, depends on the support group to make it from one week to the next.

Brown, a St. Louis native, lied about his age and joined the Marines at age 14 to fight communists in Korea. Boot camp was in San Diego. Brown remembers showing up in Korea ready to prove himself in battle.

“I thought I was a bad ass,” Brown said. “I really did. I thought nothing was going to happen to me.”

Brown nearly died on Easter Sunday 1953, after 11 months and 23 days in Korea. His platoon attacked a hill held by the Chinese. A grenade blast shredded Brown’s chest, winning him a Purple Heart and sending him home.

Brown still broods about the death of his best friend, a Japanese-American named “Musaki” — Brown never learned his first name, something he regrets — who was killed a few months earlier while they attacked a Chinese-held hill.

“We were together nine months when he got hit,” he said. “He just got too far ahead of me. I kept calling to him, ‘Slow down, slow down.’”

A pair of Chinese soldiers rushed at Musaki, killing him with their bayonets, Brown said.

Brown paused for a few moments to think about his long-dead friend.

“He made me brave,” he said.

Brown took immediate vengeance on the soldiers with his M1 rifle.

“And I didn’t have no regret,” he said. “None whatsoever. … But they were fighting for what they believed in. They had families just like we had families. Now I care. And that’s part of healing.”

Back home in St. Louis, Brown finished high school, then found work as a welder and as a railroad engineer.

He blamed the break-up of his two marriages on his PTSD. Undiagnosed for years, his illness made him hard to live with, and given to rages, he said.

“And I always say I need somebody to stop this thing that’s going on in my head,” he said. “I just wish somebody could stop what’s going on in my head. It’s like my head is talking to me.”

Brown could never convince his second wife his problems weren’t his imagination. His two daughters are split regarding whether he suffers from PTSD, he said.

“My oldest daughter, she’s like her mom. … ‘It’s all in the imagination,’” Brown said.

His other daughter, 13, takes his symptoms seriously, he said.

“And sometimes I have flashbacks, and I come out of that bedroom and I’ve hit the floor,” Brown said. “And the first thing she does is grab me. She tells me ‘Everything’s going to be OK, Daddy.’ That’s what she does.”

No quick fix

Dr. Robert Anderson, director of the PTSD clinic for older veterans at Jefferson Barracks, cautioned against anyone expecting a quick or permanent fix.

“These are the things that we deal with in life, and there are limits to what we can do,” said Anderson, a psychiatrist who has worked with Vietnam veterans since 1972.

The problem for many older veterans is their realization of all they lost to war. “You lost buddies. You lost your youth,” Anderson said. “You lost the perspective you had before.”

Today, many Vietnam veterans are coming forward for the first time to seek treatment because they realized their lives aren’t working, Anderson said.

“If you’re 30 you think, ‘OK, I still have a lot of time and I can fix this,’” Anderson said. “If you’re 45, you start to look back and say, ‘It isn’t getting fixed.’”

Nothing seemed to be working for Robert Hawkins, of St. Louis, until he showed up at the Jefferson Barracks clinic several years ago.

Hawkins, 64, served in a U.S. Navy Riverine squadron in 1970. Stationed aboard a heavily armed gunboat, Hawkins took part in combat patrols up and down Vietnam’s treacherous waterways.

His memories of combat and the deaths of his friends haunted him ever since he returned home, stoking an explosive rage.

“I didn’t understand it because I thought, ‘There’s nothing wrong with me. I have a good job. I have a family. There are guys much worse off than me,’” he said.

It came to a head one morning at the mortgage company he once operated in St. Louis when he tried to make some phone calls but couldn’t. He has since closed the mortgage company and is on disability.

“Because I had intrusive thoughts and flashbacks all day, I couldn’t pick up the hand holding a phone to make a call,” he said.

After several years in the therapy group Anderson runs, Hawkins said he now understands his rage “comes from pain and unresolved anger at the pain and the loss.”

“So by addressing those issues and grieving those issues, a funny thing happens: That anger goes away,” he said.

Many older veterans with PTSD forge strong bonds at their VA-sponsored group sessions.

Heath and Brown first met in 2004 at the support group. Brown had already been showing up for several months when Heath dropped in.

“And there was an empty chair, so I sat by the Marine Corps flag,” Heath said.

Brown grabbed the chair next to him.

“And that was it,” Heath said. “We got to talking, and we found out we were former Marines. And we just took it from there.”

Sometimes at group meetings, Brown said, when he’s feeling low, “Phil will tell me, ‘I don’t want you looking down,’” Brown said. “‘I want you to sit up straight.’”

Heath and Brown talk often on the phone. Their friendship helps each manage the thoughts and memories that weigh on them.

For Heath, it’s the guilt he feels for coming home alive.

“When you get over there, all you want to do is survive,” Heath said. “And you want your friends to survive. And you get a guilt complex when you come back. Because you had friends who were 18, 19, 20 years old, who were killed.”

When night falls, Brown feels anxious — a legacy of the night attacks he survived as an infantryman.

“So I leave the lights on every night,” he said.

But light can’t block the memories. One stands out.

It was 1952. Brown and his platoon were crammed in the back of a truck, part of a convoy speeding to the battle front.

Their truck passed a tiny Korean boy sitting near the road.

“Yeah, he couldn’t be no more than 2 or 3 years old,” Brown said, his voice catching, his face a mask of regret.

Next to the boy lay the bloated body of his mother.

“And he was just sitting there with his hands on her. And there was nothing we could do. Nothing,” Brown said. “That’s why wars are so horrible.”

Contact reporter Mike Fitzgerald at mfitzgerald@bnd.com or 239-2533.

© 2007 Belleville News-Democrat



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Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Soldiers Who Die From Mental Illness

Should they be counted among the war dead when they take their own lives after returning to the U.S?

I think so. They are victims of war just as surely as those killed in battle.

They are also victims of lies and betrayal.

The Uncounted Casualties of War

Posted on Aug 1, 2007

By Amy Goodman


U.S. Marine Lance Cpl. Jeffrey Lucey is not counted among the Iraq war dead. But he did die, when he came home. He committed suicide. His parents are suing the Department of Veterans Affairs and R. James Nicholson, the secretary of veterans affairs, for wrongful death, medical malpractice and other damages.

Kevin and Joyce Lucey saw their son’s rapid descent after he returned from combat in Iraq in June 2003. Kevin said: “Hallucinations started with the visual, the audio, tactile. He would talk about hearing camel spiders in his room at night, and he actually had a flashlight under his bed, which he could use to search for the camel spiders. His whole life was falling apart.”

Jeffrey told his family that he was ordered to execute two Iraqi prisoners of war. After he killed the two men, Jeffrey took their dog tags and wore them until Christmas Eve 2003, when he threw them at his sister, calling himself a murderer. A military investigation concluded the story is without merit, but Kevin Lucey says: “An agency investigating itself, I have a lot of problems with that. We fully believe our son.” Joyce Lucey added: “It really, to us, didn’t make a difference what caused Jeffrey’s PTSD [post-traumatic stress disorder]. We know that he came back different, so something happened to him over there.”

Jeffrey got worse, secluding himself in his room, watching TV and drinking heavily. Jeffrey was reluctant to seek care, fearing the stigma that he felt accompanied mental-health treatment. Finally, on May 28, 2004, the Luceys had Jeffrey involuntarily committed. The Veterans Affairs hospital released him after three days.

On June 5, 2004, Jeffrey had deteriorated significantly. His sisters and grandfather brought him back to the VA. Joyce said the VA “decided that he wasn’t saying what he needed to say to get involuntarily committed. Later we were to find out that they never called a psychiatrist or anybody that could have evaluated him. And they have this all on the record. It said that the grandfather was pleading for his grandson to be admitted.”

The Luceys later learned from staff notes that Jeffrey talked about three ways to commit suicide. His father explained: “He told them that he would suffocate himself, he would overdose or he would hang himself. He also shared with the psychiatrist how he had bought a hose. And, of course, on June 5, when we tried to admit him the second time and the VA declined, Joyce and I went through the house, we took everything that he could hurt himself with, but we never thought of a hose.”

Turned back by the Veterans Affairs Medical Center, Jeffrey spent his last two weeks alive at home. Kevin Lucey describes the night before his son killed himself: “It was about 11:30 at night, and I was exhausted, Jeff was exhausted. He asked me if he would be able to sit in my lap. And so for 45 minutes we rocked in silence, and the therapist told us after Jeff died that that was no doubt his last place of refuge, his last safe harbor that he felt that he could go to.”

The next evening, after returning home from work, Kevin raced inside: “I went to his bedroom, and the one thing I noted was that his dog tags were laying on his bed.” He made his way to the cellar, where he found his son Jeffrey dead, a hose double-looped around his neck.

Three years later, his parents have filed suit. They are not alone. A separate class-action suit was filed by Veterans for Common Sense and Veterans United for Truth on behalf of hundreds of thousands of veterans who have been denied medical benefits.

Jeffrey Lucey’s suicide note begins, “Dear Mom and Dad, I cannot express my apologies in words for the pain I have caused you but I beg for your forgiveness. I want you to know that I loved you both and still do but the pain of life was too much for me to deal with.”

Supporting the troops means taking care of them when they return home.

Amy Goodman is the host of “Democracy Now!,” a daily international TV/radio news hour airing on 500 stations in North America.

© 2007 Amy Goodman

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